PDF of One of My Books

Before I get started I wanted to say something. I'm fully aware that offering this book here free is going to kill any chance I have of sales on Amazon. I don't make much there anyway on it, so I guess that is fine right? I'm more interested in helping as many people as I [...]

A New Post That’s Not New-Locus of Control

I posted this over a year ago and thought I'd review, fix and rerelease it to you. Many of you were not following me then, but the message is powerful and poignant. Enjoy. Shirley Locus of control is a state of mind where we place our belief in how the outcomes of our lives happen [...]

Ever Year My Birthday is a Miracle

On September 4, 1980, I made a pact that could have cost me my life. I decided that if I didn’t see any progress in my life and still felt horrible, I’d die by suicide on September 4, 1990. You see, that is my birthday. My Life Was Messy  I was so sick inside from [...]

Support Me on Patreon!

Hi everyone. I wanted to announce here that I am on Patreon. My reasoning is simple, I need to earn some money to keep my WordPress account up to date. By February 12th of next year, I will need to earn $200 to pay for my WordPress page. That may sound like a lot of [...]

The Walls Between Us

Living with dissociative identity disorder is very hard a majority of the time. The intrusive thoughts, emotions, and behaviors can make our lives hell. To make matters worse, singletons (people who do not have the diagnosis of DID) don’t understand our plight. It’s not that people don’t care, they just find our disorder intriguing at [...]

Just Like You, I’m Only Human

If you have been watching for and reading my blog recently I'm sure you have noticed I have been struggling. I've written posts that are full of real emotion and not holding back. I think this honest is crucial to help others who live with the effects of any kind of traumatic experience(s). You see, [...]

A Nowhere Man?

I’ve written on this blog about the road less taken many times before. However, there are so many aspects and thoughts I have concerning it, I had to write another post. Some consider the somewhere they are reaching for to be heaven, some nirvana, some consider it blinking into nothingness. That’s not what I’m really [...]

Attachment to the Perpetrator

In my research that I have been doing for my book on attachment disorders, I was reminded of a subject I believe I have yet to tackle here on this site. Attachment to the perpetrator sounds like a disorder on its own, but it is the natural consequence of children who are being reared by [...]

Dry Wells

Being open to other people about the severe abuse I suffered as a child has been very challenging.  At first, I wore a sign on my forehead that said, “incest” and when I shook hands with someone I would announce, “Hi, my name is Shirley and I’m a survivor of severe childhood trauma.” I am [...]

If My Life Was a Movie

  I’ve been talking to people about my life story for many years now. Recently I have begun trying to find someone who would be interested in writing a book and then a screenplay about my experiences. I think the true story of a person who lives with dissociative identity disorder would make one hell [...]

Emotional Equations

If you are like me, you love equations and logic. Well, check this out. I found it on twitter (I think), and had to share. Don't forget to check out the Emotional Equations author, Chip Conley!  

The $64 Question

What Is It About Childhood Trauma that Causes DID? Today I’m going to touch on the subject, what it is that causes dissociative identity disorder? That, as you may have guessed by now, is a subject that has many dimensions ranging from attachment problems and a missed developmental stage to our bodies being flooded with [...]

DID A Matter of Dissociation Over Insanity

  I have this video several years ago and posted it to YouTube. It was my first power point project and my first ever video. I was unaware of the copyright issues with music, and am very grateful to Enya for allowing me to keep her song with my video. She is a peach! I [...]

Between a Rock and a Hard Place

Many of us who live with a diagnosis of dissociative identity disorder have faced the conundrum of trying to find adequate mental health care. In this article I’m going to discuss the hard choices people like myself must make to find any kind of care at all in our current national mental health system.   [...]

Finding Beauty After Trauma

Enjoy the beauty around you, after all, you only get one life.