Tomorrow evening I am attending the 40th anniversary of my high school graduating class. This will be the first time I have been in the presence of most of the people I went to school with for that length of time. I Never Belonged--Anywhere I wish I could say I was super excited or thrilled [...]
Nearly all my life I have had the feeling that life is forcing me along. I sometimes get the distinct feeling of a rope that is attached to me and that life is pulling me along against my will. I think it began when I was a child and the forced motion has increased as [...]
I was reading my email this morning and came across an article that proved what I've said here about being invalidated in childhood. In the article on Psychology Today I found a piece backing up what we who were the victims of this kind of treatment have always known, it damaged us. Granted, the article [...]
Every adult human has them. Those voices in the back of your consciousness silently telling you of your worth. The tapes are recorded by your parents, teachers, and friends and never be erased. If you are lucky, they tell you that you are lovely, intelligent and worthy of love. However, if you grew up in [...]
In this article, I am going to examine the differences between the realities of one living with the diagnosis of dissociative identity disorder and those whom we in the DID community call singletons. Also, using my own experiences in therapy, I’m going to talk about how I discovered this divergence and what had to occur [...]
I have often told people that surviving the treatment for dissociative identity disorder was as hard as surviving the trauma that caused it. I thought I’d write a piece explaining what I mean by this statement. Entering the Flames of Hell Somewhere in late 1989, when I was twenty-nine years old, I [...]
I wrote this article several months ago. I received a huge response in ways I had not anticipated. There were those who were interested and glad to hear what I had to say. But, there were those who grew extremely angry with me for what I said. So, being the sucker for punishment that [...]
This piece may trigger anger or even rage in some of my readers, because I am going to speak on the subject of who is responsible for the actions of a DID system. I don't believe in pussy-footing around, so be forewarned. Your toes might get stepped on. My hope is that after you [...]
A VERY IMPORTANT EVENT IS COMING TO SPRINGFIELD ILLINOIS!
There are many parts of living with dissociative identity disorder that is difficult. They include not knowing from moment to moment if you have lost time, facing people who are upset because you have no idea what they are talking about and the never-ending fight to stay ahead of depression and anxiety. However, one of [...]
We all need inspiration sometime. I am no exception.
Amnesia is and always has been part of my life.
We all must make decisions in life. Do we do it in freedom or pain?